"My horoscope said that I'd be meeting a new person today... I guess that's you." He said while we were waiting for the light to go off. The way he said it made me smile inside, like there was some sort of glimmering hope busting out of this new found friendship. But there wasn't, he was way too careless for my taste and the way he handled himself reminded me of someone I used to know. Someone who I didn't care for that much, someone who went off the rails so to speak.
But this guy, saying this to me in such a natural and almost concerning way, moved me in a very uncomfortable way. The very brief moments of idle chat we've had during the day did not justify this kind of sentimentality, it was weird but also touching. A brute kid with a child on it's way, maybe he is learning that life does not owe him any favors, maybe he is reaching some sort of new consciousness, an epiphany to help him deal with the recent responsibility.
He was clearly depressed or maybe just overwhelmed, I did not know the man before today so I can't really tell. But something is making him act all insecure and reluctant to take charge, a man who thinks he knows only because he is such a good liar, to himself and the people around him. A fraud perhaps or maybe just another joker playing a prank on the rest of us.
I don't know, but I have a strong feeling I am about to find out.
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